help.. if god exist....

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tears coming out from my eyes everyday....

only victim of eczema would understand...
according to dr.. ihave to go @ least 1month this way, every day...
scratching @ night... having only about 4hours sleep...

yelling like madness in bath room everyday.......
skin dried like crocodile skin....

cant go to work, waiting to be fired....
cant even buy food myself..
cant even get drink for myself...
cant even sweep the damn floor filled with my dead skins.... as like someone pour sand into my room and bed...

i use almost 1 roll of toilet paper to wipe of the yellow ooze during night time...
what can i ask for?

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about 20+ mosquito goes into my kill list in ust 1 night....

my weight history

Hmm as i can remember...

1999: below 60 kg
2000: 60+kg
2002: 70+kg
2007: 80+ kg

now....
2008 1st half: 84kg highest
2008 2nd half: 78kg
2009 jul: 76kg