sickness and situation...

a lot of people didn't realise eczema was a serious disease...
just did few days, my eczema flare up again..
i was feeling so depressed...
i felt as if how nice if i'm no longer need to deal with life again...

till the night, i went for treatment, my body was so much better...
the feeling of depression has gone...
but it still borders me, i'm afraid if it ever comes again...

why exabytes sucks!

keeping it simple and short (KISS)
- stupid voice machine, interval of 7 seconds asking for on hold press
- a lot of time waited > 15minutes, having every 5-7 seconds pressing the * to on hold
- sometimes email reply take > 2 hours to response
- stupid DOS (denial of service) prevention: Why? login in via webmail / outlook with > 3 times attempt fail, ur ip will be black listed forever! Oh GOSH!
- penang phone number! if u r calling from kl, having 15minutes of on hold with 5-7 seconds pressing "*", u will understand what i meant
- if u cancel an account by accidental (even 1 day gap), and u ask them to reactivate, *CHACHING*! CHARGE U RM 100
- Email Alias / Group -> DISABLED! You can't create group to send to everyone in your list...
- CPU Processing limited. If you have > 100mails a day for your business, *Siren*, they will call you up to get a Virtual Server!
- FTP With bandwidth throttle... if you download / upload over their quota, ur ftp / connection will start to lag or stop responding
- .eml rejected! if you are using thunderbird and would like to forward mail, good luck my friend... you will need it...
- (more to come, if i face anymore...)

Wow!
Try this:
Go to google, type:
Exabytes sucks!
http://www.google.com.my/search?hl=en&client=firefox-a&rls=com.ubuntu%3Aen-US%3Aunofficial&hs=QGS&q=exabytes+sucks&btnG=Search&meta=
Look at the number of results! it goes on and on..damn...
Should have had look at this before deciding.......

2009 so far...

2009 is a surprising year...
no doubt.. things happen...

jan 1st -
mom got admitted to hospital for high blood preasure / "hypertension"
reading above 300.. wow...
finally she got out, but under medication after 3 nights in hospital...

jan * -
dad got heart problem, lucky it was high cholestrol...
things were okay after that...
found new chinese dr to cure eczema, so far, managed to cure partially...
but still suffering occasionally...

feb 9 -
broke off in a massive dissatisfaction...
i'm labelled as "sarcastic person"... okay.. i need time to change...
well, its not one sided problem...

feeling alone again~

i used to have lots of friends..
since having gf, most of my time has been occupied.
partially thx to my bz schedulle also...

well, its time to open up my self for friends again...
feeling slightly depressed :(

pain..

mm.. i'm still feeling the pain...
things happen in a blitz!

u make me lost my confident in love...
i felt that love is so fragile... 1 small matter became a big issue...
no, i'm not talking about that your "so called small matter"

i'm talking about "giving in"...
did u do this for the sake of truth from ur heart?
or u r doing this bcox of ur dad?

i'm very upset with u........

-the end-

yes, i admit that i'm not a forgiving person.

but i can't really forgive someone who doesn't apologise for their mistake...
no matter how much u show your care, it does not help..

no doubt, u r one of the most caring person...
i'm a direct person. if who did mistake, who apologise.
a lot of time you do something without realising.
you raise ur voice, u change ur tone... which provoke me to be sarcastic...
bcox i don't have the patient to deal with u when i think i didnt did the wrong thing...

yes, i have bad temper, but so do you.
you are easily provoked to raise your voice, did u ever thing about it?
my argument with people was simple.
argue in reasoning. but you argue by raising voice, thats not fair.
i can be patient if i think twice that if i ever do any mistake.
but that day, u were 2 much.

i didnt realise u like to add "give in" in all our argument.
did you ever think why i never give in? if you didnt start those argument, i won't be so angry @ u .

anyway, i hope your decision of no saying sorry won't be regretted. And i hope that i won't regret my decision of not "giving in" this time.

if you mention about the vacation (waterfall), i was in terrible shape. it was the same to you when you have your "p" and your back pain. most of the time i keep quiet when u start to think negative and talk about negative stuff. i understand. your back is in pain, thats why i never argue back. Did you ever think about this? Why did you forgot to calculate this???

i do worry alot about your back issue. even bring u to hospital. why can't you see this?

i don't like to tham ppl when i'm not wrong. please.. if everytime u r wrong and i've to tham... you will never change. do you ever think about this???

good day and good bye...

why such ego?.

Why?
i don't wish to c u cry.....
i don't wish to hurt u ......

but why did you start it??????
easy for u to say its small matter.
ITS BIG MATTER TO ME!

just say sorry and things could clear up!
WHY CAN'T YOU APOLOGISE???
Do you really want to end it this way???????????

Our relation is in your hand.
If you value me, the key is in your hand.

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The seek for eczema cure continues...

Hmm, my previous talk about eczema cure didnt turn out well.
i turn out to go back to the master tole in jalan sultan ismail, wisma promet 4th floor for help...

but it turn out to be less effective now, my eczema worsen, and i couldn't sleep @ night..
my finger keep scratching all night long, which my mind flying around sleep without peace...


since the master tole seems to charge a hefty price for his herbs, i've decided to go for alternative herbs purchase. coincidently, i walk over to a store same row as the vegetarian shop in kinrara.
There, i meet up with Master Foo, who owned a shop selling herbs and without noticing, he is also a chinese doctor.
While packing the medicine recipe for me, he casually asked me who was the medicine for...
So, i told him my story...

He gently give a light press below my "ibu jari" mother thumb, it seems to be pain!
it seems that a normal person does not have pain over there. He then gently press on my tummy using about 2 fingers, and i realise the pain. My friend told me that my hand and tummy was quite hard, not soft like a normal person. Master Foo told me it was "air" inside my body, causing the itch on my skin... and i talked to my self, mmm finally someone alternative i can seek help on..

Then, cny came... i was still suffering from sleepless night...
on the 8th of cny, i finally meet up with Master Foo again, and he give me some accupuncture treatment on my tummy and my back... whoa.. it was light pain, and sound came out from my skin, it was as gas flies out of my skin through the needle...
i felt the relaxing feeling. My tummy starts to feel softer, plus my "ibu jari" seems to be soften, and no longer hurts..
he gave me some medicine, and i could sleep better, but still itch... much lesser than before.
i boiled some medicine and followed the medicine for 2 days...

finally today, 4th feb, i went for 2nd treatment. My thumb finger below seems to hurt a bit again... and my hand seems to feel pain when he twist my wrist.
after some accupuncture treatment on my tummy, back, i finally had 2 needle on each hand.. and i can almost feel instance relief and less itch. Then he twist my hand, and this time, it was much less pain!.. wow...
i wish this is what i was looking for over 7years of eczema suffering.
Since this treatment, i've started to wear cloth to sleep. Master Foo ask me not to drink any non-boiled water, and try not to catch cold.

I wish that this treatment is finally working for me. And he only charge about rm 40+ for the treatment. Master Tole used to charge me rm 80+ for accupuncture and rm 16/pack /day of herbs... which could lead to rm 190+ for 1 week... :(

i will update on my condition soon :)