.. doctor say ive another 1year to go...
F*.. what the hell did i do in my past to deserve this suffering...
i wish i could be strong...
but its just 2 much...
maybe i should start to meditate...
maybe god ask me to see myself away from being with my body...
go on a destiny of a detachment..
detachment with peace of mind...
detachment away from life desire...
detachment from ALL DESIRE.
reminding me of suffering and death ...
reminding me of cycle of life...
i wish i would understand which path i should follow...
shall i try to be a monk? maybe i can detach myself from my suffering...
god.. why use this way to enlighten me?....
isnt there any better way?....
